12.05.1977 (of Kathrin’s Diary)

I visited Finnick. He was very sad but when I came, he gave a smile.
– What’s the matter?
– …nothing
– I see that you’re sad.
– Kathrin… I … I have a cancer.
I couldn’t cath my breath. I cried.
– Katy, I don’t died yet.
– Oh, Finnick… You lied …
– Unhappily, that’s true.
– No, it was about that, therefore you gave me up.
– Yes… I really love you.
– How Ellie does that sound?
– It’s wheels within wheels.
– She’s only my best friend.
– I only love you.
We huddled together.
– You’ll be alright – I said
– You and I’ll be safe and sound…
– …and forever together.
I came to home. I’m writting a note for Ellie. I know that Ellie will start find me.

28.04.1977 (of Ellie’s Diary)

 It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. Everybody wants to throw it all away sometimes. Unfortunately, it's not that easy. I must give some tought to it all.

04.04.1977 (of Kathrin’s Diary)

I did the worst thing yet in my life. I wounded Ellie. I know I should refrain, but I love Finnick only too. He said – I don’t know… who love I? Then I was explaining him that he should love Ellie, he kissed me. I understood that he really love me…

04.04.1977 (of Ellie’s Diary)

I, Katy and Finnick decided that we go to the glade. We had a picnic. We talked and ate for hours. We looked back on our childhood. It seemed, that I anew got to know him. Kathrin had sadness written all over her face. I understood, if I fell head over heels in love with Finnick, I wrecked our friendship. We swore that „We remain best friends forever”. I didn’t doom my old friendship for oblivion. Then, We went onto the beach. I came home for moment. I’ll take a jug of lemonade. I saw how they kiss, when I going out. Then, I threw on rock a jug. You know, when you want to forget, you don't want to see things, so I just go to my room, to lock yourself inside.

Refleksja nr 1

Jeżeli ktoś wogóle czyta (mam nadzieję że niedługo takich osób będzie więcej), to polecam muzyczny nastrój moich wpisów. Polega on na tym, że do każdego notatkowego wpisu przypisana jest piosenka oddająca jej nastrój, przekaz etc. Co do refleksji to chodziło mi o to aby ująć w tym opowiadaniu/pamiętniku życie jakiego jeszcze nie poznaliśmy. Nie mam tu na myśli romansików tylko pragnę stworzyć w tym pamiętniku poważną i wciągającą fabułę. Pozdrawiam i czekam na czytelników. 

Vampirek...

27.03.1977 (of Kathrin’s Diary)

Dear Diary, today I visited my best friend – Ellie. She is girl of medium-lenght, black hair. She has got green eyes and pale complexion. I told Ellie about Finnick. He love her. I and Finnick bust up three mounths ago. We quarreled upon Ellie’s arrival… Finnick is a handsome boy. He’s eighteen years old. Finnick has dark short hair and delicate voice. His eyes is like a nightfall. Four years ago I, Ellie and Finnick met by the Moon Lake. We played hide and seek. Ellie found me and Finnick exclusively after two hours. We hid under jetty. I kiss him for first time. Ellie go away soon after this day. I never remember she, but I fall in love with Finnick…

27.03.1977 (of Ellie’s Diary)

Last night I dreamt of my future life. I exult at awoke up. It was very strange and different. This dream forecast my life, my emotion, my future procedure. I knew… I must lit candle of friendship with people. This night I couldn’t sleep with my bed. I went to the garden. It’s going to very calm morning. I just closed my eyes for a short time… I heard the sound of waves sea and birdsong. I love it. This place is magic, mysterious and fabulous. I saw a small forest, near to the beach. I take a walk. I saw there a lot of anemones while I was getting to the forest. The forest was extraordinarily quietly. I smelt scented of anemones in the air. I got pleasure out of this breathing space. I walked around about one hour yet. I finally came back to the garden. That weren’t all that pretty. The empty house filled with an eerie melody. I felt a little afraid when I was entering to house. Then I saw Katherine did she take hair down. She is beautiful girl of long, thick, blond hair. She’s seventeen years old. Katy has delicate complexion, and sky-blue eyes. Usually, she wear ivory, airy dress. She’s my best friend. 
– I could show you what you want to see, and take you where you want to be – she said – You are so tough, if it’s about this place. 
– I really don’t think this is a good time. 
– Oh, Yes… This is a good time for removal ! 
– No. I know, what is good for me. 
– You’re stubborn. 
– I know. 
– Words fail me ! 
– Oh, Katy, I don’t need any help. 
– Ellie! You need my help… you need some help. 
– Let’s not bicker. 
Then Katy got up of the house. I catch she up in front of forest. ­­­
– Kathrin, you musn’t huff. 
– I will only so that you can enjoy life.
– Thank you very much, but I know one’s own mind. 
– You’re welcome. 
– Remember me to Finnick 
– Okay, I hear that, you love him. 
– What? 
– Now, don't pretend you don't understand me. You be best friends with Finnick from childhood. 
– I think, that Finnick love you. 
– Unfortunately, I carry a torch for he. 
– I never knew that. 
– Don’t you get it yet? 
– No, I don’t. 
– He love you… 
– I don’t belive you! 
– …just belive… 
– Goodbye! 
– See you soon – she said this so softly and convincingly, that I belive her. 
I came back to my home. For the rest of the day I stay in it. I reflect on my love for whole evening.